Letter of Appreciation to Parents (01)

Mom & Dad,

こんにちわ. You may be reading this a week after I typed this, but you may not even be able to read this as well. Well.. I'd be planning to send this letter to you when I'm going.

There are a lot of things I want to tell you. But being me, I'd never be able to let these things out. Never able to express my feelings, and my actions were all due to my wants. When I looked back at it, I had never expressed my thanks to you guys.

Have I ever told you guys what I felt? I might still be in my rebellious stage, but I've passed the worst time, right? When I was in form 2 and 3, I really hated being near you guys, but now, I don't mind. I was thinking, 'if they were gone one day..', and it made me really upset.

Even though our time together, we may not share much words. We may not have same interest, Mum with her planets, Dad with his golf, and me with my gaming&JE addiction. But I have learnt a lot from you guys.

Thank you for that.

When I was young, I was a pain, ne? I want this, I want that, I hate this, I hate that. A spoilt brat. I realised that already.

You'd always comforted me at spots where I got hurt, and helped me up. You taught me what was wrong and what was right. You gave me reasoning for stuff.

Up till now, I've always thought, 'I wished I had a better childhood,' or how my life had always been lonely. Now when I thought of it, what did I usually do at home when I was a child. After moving here, I really don't remember. I never had a computer when we were living in Belait.

It was only recent, right? When I told Mum about my thoughts, 'When you guys are at work, I feel lonely,' those were my words. I don't know, but did you shed some tears over that? I was able to say that after having to say, 'I don't care if you guys are here or not,' during form 2 and 3. I had the idea of having to get used to being alone at home. But the idea of really being away from you guys, and not knowing how well you're doing really worries me.

Also, I realised why you two were working so hard at start, not to even have a honeymoon at start of your marriage. You wanted us to have a better life in the future, right?

Up till now, I have been a brat, and I may not turn out how you wanted me to be. But this is me. I may not be a good child to you, and I may have said a lot of words that may have hurt. My foolish and selfish actions were not result from your upbringing. And maybe, I have not expressed my feelings well enough or at all.

'I Love You' is a hard phrase for me to say. Embarrassing, but true from my heart. I may shrug your words off, or shrug you off, but I have taken it into my mind.

I have stuff I want to tell, but let me tell you this first.



I'm glad to be born into this world.



..Thank You For Giving Birth to Me.

Thank You For Raising Me.

Thank You For Teaching Me.

Thank You For Being My Parents.

...No matter what I say or do..

I Do and Will Love You Forever..




My Dearest Parents; Mum & Dad.

Letter of Appreciation to Friends (01)

みんな,

こんにちわ. I'm typing this letter to all who I know and close to, simply because I cannot express my feelings. I may be able to be frank and mean to people, but I can't seem to express this kind of feeling. Maybe my words seem plain, but this is the only best way I can express it.

I'm writing this, not that I'm leaving, just that I want to tell people what I feel before anything bad could happen. At least, so that they would know what I feel.

We all have been through good and bad turns, and I have come to know that I've been to the bad but not the worst. At my bad times, my friends had been there for me. They comforted me, and knowing their efforts, it calmed down my heart. Compared to now and then, I was very childish then, and all my thoughts and actions was stimulated by my own selfishness. Now, I feel that I am, I want to make other people feel happy as well.

I wasn't able to see how I was then and how I was flawed. But now I am able to see that, but we are all not perfect. We have our own uniqueness..

My dear friends,

those times we have spent together is precious to me. I may not be able to remember, and maybe you don't remember it either, but it has happened to us. Our body might remember it then.

I'm very happy to have met you all, and to get to know you more was definitely a wonderful memory.

I may have not been a great friend to all, but yet you still stayed by my side as I was able to stay by yours. Everyone gave me their support, and I hope that I was able to support you as well. When days are down, I have hoped I was able to comfort you at least, if I was not able to help.

It really makes me think, 'Have I been a good friend?' Maybe not, maybe so. But all I know is, this is how I really am to other people.

My words may have been frank and mean, and maybe I've hurt you as well; through my actions, my words, my silence. And then, I'd always look back and think, 'Maybe I shouldn't have said that.' It would always leave me with guilt, and I'd always decide to apologize. But being who I am, I'd find it a challenge and in an instant, I'd drop the idea. I'd always think its the thought that counts. But it wasn't like they would know.

When I looked back, I thought, have I expressed my gratitude towards them? For their birthday, all I gave them was a simple greeting, but no gifts. I was horrible at choosing them, and even if I thought of buying them a gift, I had never ever given them the gift, thinking that it was just a gift that they probably won't like.

I write this letter with a goal in my mind, and heart. It is to say this to you:




I'm very sorry for my mistakes,

&

Thank You Very Much.

& I Thank Fate For This Wonderful Memory, Gift, & Life.